October 14

rehab has been good and I went back to school on Monday so that's good! just been busy catching up with school and everything! so I'm staying and Ansley's and alyssas still, and I just feel so bad I've been here for so long! I feel like I need to go back to the dorms, but I had the deep impression to stay here tonight. so I just kinda layed there on the couch like I always do. then all of a sudden a bunch of sister missionaries show up. I was sooo confused on what was going on. but they were so sweet AH 

literally I told them what was happening to me and they were freaking out and told me how brave I was and how strong I was to be a 18 year old college student in Hawaii with a destroyed knee on crutches. it kinda help me realize how we as individuals don't give ourselves enough credit. how we are sooo hard on ourselves and that it's okay to take a step back and realize you're awesome and you're strong and you're doing amazing things. because you are! and it's okay to once in awhile be proud of yourself. TREAT YO SELF 

anyways they talked to us for awhile with this cute roommate I have for this two weeks her names Ashley and is the most thoughtful soft spoken cutest girl ever. and we talked about missions, and trials and they shared the scripture in Moroni 

it was so simple and cute and I felt the spirit soooo strongly and I've literally never seen people glow like people describe but these ladies where shining! I couldn't stop smiling and they definetly felt prompted to come here cause I needed to hear their testimonies and talk to girls around my age who chose to serve God for 1.5 years of their life.i just kept thinking "this could be me" and I was soo extremely excited if I decide to serve a mission. I've always wanted to, and I had a plan that I was gonna go around March. but that plan keeps changing and I'm just waiting to see what happens in my life and praying lots to find my answers for what direction I should take in my life. 

then I asked if they knew Karen calvacante, which one of them did so I took a picture and here it is!!! excuse my pajama clothes I was ready to go to bed hahaha it was like 8 pm but I felt pretty embarrassed I was wearing boys boxers with sister missionaries. hahahah they comforted me, prayed for me, and told me if I ever needed anything to call them! they are so cute ah and people are beautiful and wonderful. throughout this whole trial I've learned that it's okay to have people serve you. I have become humbled as I watch people go out of their way to serve me from running to opening the door for me to making me cookies to writing a nice note to giving me hugs and genuinly asking me how I'm doing and telling Me I look pretty to when the whole school floods from rain water and the sidewalk is literally a river and it's pouring rain and a boy carries you to where you need to go and gets all wet just to help you even though he doesn't know you. 

at times I feel helpless, like at the caf when I have nobody to carry my food, but there is ALWAYS someone who comes and helps. I've learned to ask for help, but most of the time someone is there already serving me because they see it and as a result I've become so much closer to my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. LIFE IS GOOD