so Today was hard. I woke up feeling super nervous and scared. I went and ate breakfast by myself, which is fine cause being in a room of 6 girls makes you want your alone time. haha I went to my political science class, where I am absolutely memorized by my professor when he speaks. we are reading this political book called roots of freedom. it's really hard for me to focus on what he's really saying because I keep thinking "DAD.. DAD..DAD...what would dad say about this? what do you think dad would like me to say? would dad agree to this?" just some background: my dad is a politician who lovesssss talking about political issues with me at home, we would sit and watch the news, or we would talk in my room about ideas we had, one time I told him my opinion on gay marriage, which is slightly different than his, and he FORCED me to go to a 2 hour talk on how gay marriage ruins society. yeah intense. but I mostly love that class because I know he loves it. and that's when you know you really love someone, you love something that's out of your comfort zone just because you know they love and enjoy it and are passionate about it. and you want to tell them and engage them in it because you know they really enjoy it. and it made me really sad because I missed him so much.
then I had soccer for the first time. my first collegiant practice. and it was chaos I tell you! everyone was frantic and nervous and jittery and were slide tackling their team mates to impress our coach. and for me it went fairly well untill... I planted wrong and tweaked my knee. it hurt so bad. and coach told me to go see the trainer. I was so mad. beyond something I've never experienced before. I had worked so hard for this moment only for my body to give up on me once again! how rude of my body! I was so frustrated. and hot tears were streaming down my face. more like waterfalls because I was embarrassed and upset at myself. why do bodies fail us sometimes? who knows! but I went and it was good, nothing torn just a bad tweak that really agitated my knee. but I couldn't stop crying.( once I start I can't stop) and ofcourse a bunch of the boys soccer team comes in, all staring at me. one dude tried to talk to me! how nice but I wasn't having it. anyways, I then took a long shower, had some food. well.. sort of.. the only thing I eat here are rice and ice cream. I have prolly eaten more rice here than my whole entire life COMBINED. the food is just not so good. it's so saturated and oily and frankly very bland in my opinion. but that's what you get for working at a nice resturaunt for 6 months before! haha ANYWAYS I went to the library to study, yes family I do study don't be worried! but a boy in my ward named Clifton reminded me, HEY come to family home evening! and I felt the strongest impression to go, I thought if I go I will get more blessing from God! can't have enough blessing am I right?!! haha and it was speed dating 😑 I was like oh gosh this is something my dads byu ward would do! but I met some really interesting dudes like Juan from Korea. yes a Latino name but a Korean boy ahha so funny. a nice kid from Cape Verde! and talked to Clifton for a bit. he is the funniest loudest intriguing fellow I have ever met. he's a mix of Japanese and Fijian I think.. I'm not quite sure. but he's so silly he makes me laugh. anyways, it made me feel a lot better about my leg, and that God sometimes will give us promptings for the soul purpose of making us feel better and feel loved and to have fun! here's some pics 
you can kinda tell by my Baggie eyes that I had had a long day, but meeting new people and getting good date practice always will benefit you right? haha night xoxo
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